Walking without a crutch

I was doing so well with my tobacco intake. Even though I had not completely quit I had myself down to less than half a pack of cigarettes a day, which is personally very good for me. Now, here come my excuses: currently I have been going through a lot. I have recently had to file for custody of my daughter, which means past memories of an abusive relationship have been replayed over and over again in my mind. I have also had some health issues arise, which on its own seems like enough to give somebody that extra push to quit, but unfortunately for me it has added stress and increased my tobacco intake. I feel that smoking gives me a slight relief from the stress but many people would say that it is all in my head. Instead of focusing on the slight relief I feel after having a cigarette, I need to remember the harm that it is doing to my body.

For most people, cravings seem to usually only last a few minutes and once the 2 to 3 minute mark has passed, it is a lot easier to tell yourself that you no longer need that cigarette you have been debating on whether or not to light. Over the years I have found effective coping mechanisms to “replacing” my cigarettes, such as using suckers, toothpicks and gum to help get me through and beat my cravings. Please keep in mind that using suckers, gum or hard candies does help but watching your sugar intake while pregnant is always important as well (low sugar/diabetic candies and suckers could be a better alternative). I also currently have a list in my pocket of reasons why I do not want nor need a cigarette and will read my list when I feel I want or need to light up. Things on my list include the harm to myself and baby, the smell I will have after having a cigarette and the money which I spend on cigarettes.

These replacements only temporarily help, I have recently seen ads on television that have made me think and remind me what I am actually doing to my body as well as my baby. There was one very graphic and blunt ad I recently viewed online relating to smoking while pregnant which pushed me to not even having one cigarette for more than a day.

As my due date in November quickly approaches, I am still smoking and currently trying to find any way possible to help me lower my tobacco intake again. I have added a video which I personally found heartbreaking and deters me away from smoking. If this is helpful as it is for me, it is also possible to go to http://www.youtube.com and search for Anti-Smoking Videos Canada.