TODAY is a Very Important Day!

Here is a little back story for anyone who hasn’t been following my previous posts:

When I woke up one year ago today, I had no intentions of quitting smoking. I was going through my day, just like any other. Spending time with my husband and my four year old. We were relaxing at home, watching movies because it was it was cold outside and my husband was supposed to be working an overnight shift. I wasn’t feeling very well, was having some minor contractions, I didn’t think that much into it though as I had been having them on and off for a while. My husband had decided to take me in to get checked at the hospital because I started feeling some pressure. When we got there, they did some tests, checked and I was only 5cms dilated. I was not in active labour yet though, my water had not broken. We decided that I would go home and come back to the hospital for 6:30pm unless things changed before then. When I got home, I made sure that everything was ready for me to go, got my mom lined up to watch my daughter, and my husband went off to work because I wasn’t feeling any different. The time rolled around for me to go to the hospital to get checked again. Off I went, in my car alone (bad idea for the record, someone should have driven me). I lit a cigarette, which I often did as long as my daughter was not in the car of course. For what ever reason, when I flicked that cigarette butt out the window (shame on me for littering… I know) I just said to myself, that was it. I would not smoke anymore. And, I didn’t. That was it, I was ready.

Today is Friday February 27th, 2015 and it is ONE YEAR since I quit smoking. Continue reading

Working On It

I am now 27 weeks pregnant and boy is the baby moving! This is the time where the baby’s position turns from upwards to downwards. I love the sensation I feel. I can’t wait for my next ultrasound. I’m having one done at eight months and maybe this time they will be able to tell me the sex of my child. I really, really want to know!

I’ve had a pretty stress-free February. I am currently involved in a program at CAMH for mood and anxiety disorders. It’s called AIM (Alternative Inpatient Milieu) and here I attend group sessions as well as individual counseling. Anyone can be referred, you don’t have to be part of the CAMH network. The program lasts for four weeks and you live and eat here. On the weekends you get passes to go home. It’s really helping me a lot, especially with quitting smoking. Because I have to walk off the property to have a cigarette, I don’t do it very often. It has become a chore. Continue reading

To Guilt or Not to Guilt

First an update on my last blag:  Since my last blog regarding gestational diabetes, I was retested and I do not have it, not even close. I should add that 20% of women who take the test have a “higher than normal levels” result the first time around and only 5% of those women actually have it upon re testing (also women 25 or younger are not even tested for this). Though this information was available to me before, I wasn’t hearing any of it at the time anyways.

To Guilt or Not to Guilt

I have always thought anti-smoking campaigns that use guilt to get people to quit smoking are coercive and ineffective. The more I feel like a jerk > the more I feel alienated from people > the more I want to smoke. Continue reading

Introduction to me and my story

Over the next few months, in this blog I will be describing my experiences of quitting smoking before, during and after pregnancy.

First things first: I am a twenty-eight year old mother of three beautiful little girls, ages three (almost four), one and a half (almost two), and just six months. I married my best friend who, I’ve known for the past five years. I started smoking at the age of ten, something I don’t recommend. I plan to explain this to my girls when they are older. I have tried to quit many times and could never really get up the self-esteem to go longer than a month.

I am currently enrolled in a stop smoking clinic in Hamilton ON. When I started at the clinic I was smoking upwards of fifteen to twenty cigarettes a day. Now, three weeks in and I am down to around five to ten a day. When I started I was not very confident that I could quit smoking, but in that short amount of time I have cut my smoking in half and my confidence had gone up from a five to a six. I feel like I can really do it this time.

There are many things that have affected me. The big one is stress: there is money, work, kids and things that are out of my control. I know it’s harder when people say things to you like “just quit”, or “just put them down”. But it is hard to quit and don’t let anyone tell you it’s not. My first stress factor is my girls. Don’t get me wrong I love them all with every fiber of my being, but three under the age of four can be a lot. But even more stressful is that my children are currently in the care of Children’s Aid Society because someone (we don’t know who for sure) has abused them. Another big stress factor for me is not having my own income. Since my oldest daughter was born I have been a stay at home mom. My husband is the sole income earner in our house. It is pretty embarrassing to ask for money to buy tampons and food.

I am going to end this on a lighter note by saying: it is a hard road and a long one, but I know I can do it with help from friends, family and complete strangers who blog about quitting smoking. If you need someone to talk to, please feel to talk to me. Not only can I help you by listening to you, but you can help me by talking with me. We all need help sometimes, there is no harm in seeking it out.

Good Luck.

Lucy H.

Stress & Staying Smoke Free

Near the end of November, my husband and I were out for dinner one night when we got the one of the worst phone calls we could possibly get. My husbands very BEST friend (brother is more like it) and my children’s Godfather had been in an accident and was in the hospital.  Naturally we packed up and drove to see him. We had no idea what we were about to walk into when we got to the hospital. When we arrived, we were informed that he was not going to make it.  Continue reading

On My Way…

Hello, I’m Melissa. I just turned 37 years old and I am exactly six months pregnant. I am also a smoker trying to quit.

I started smoking when I was 14 yrs old during March Break and haven’t stopped since. I thought for sure when I became pregnant I would quit and that it would be easy. That’s not the case – it’s as hard as ever for me. Drinking was easy to stop, I don’t even think about it. But smoking for me is different. I tried stopping on my own and going “cold turkey” but couldn’t. Continue reading