As humans we are habitual creatures. I am a person who likes routine and structure in my life. Therefore, being habitual allows me to fulfill the need of routine and structure. Cigarettes have been a habit that I used to structure my life. For example, I would have a smoke after my morning tea, after a large meal or when I was stressed. Basically, smoking helped to break the day into manageable increments of time. My day would start by waking up, having my tea and a smoke. Then at work, 1030am would roll around and I would have a smoke break. Lunch time…well, you get the idea.
During my pregnancy, I quit smoking and didn’t feel the need to smoke in my daily routine. I thought about smoking during pregnancy, however I did not need it after my morning tea or after a large meal. I was content without smoking.
Since, I have given birth to my son; I have felt the strong need to go back to my normal routines and habits. For example, I did not eat sushi during my pregnancy, but once I gave birth I started craving sushi…I feel the same craving for a smoke. I think about smoking all the time, and feel I need it to function. In pregnancy I got a strong internal power not to smoke, however I feel I have lost that strength. I am not sure how to control the urge not to smoke. I thought I broke the habit in my pregnancy….but I obviously did not, because I am still thinking of smoking. Has anyone experienced the same feeling?