Smoking In A Different Era

Sometimes I wish I was growing up in this era. Like if I was 18 or 19 yrs old, I probably wouldn’t be a smoker. Times are different from 20 yrs ago when I started smoking. It’s not as easy to buy a pack, smoke places and there is no cool factor anymore. When I was growing up I could walk into any store and purchase cigarettes with no questions asked. Now you have to be 19 yrs and show your government photo ID. And you can’t see what you’re purchasing because all cigarettes must be covered so the public can’t see.

Kids today are way more informed, educated and dissuaded about the harms of tobacco use. Continue reading

My Battle of Quitting Smoking

In my last couple of posts, I have discussed my difficulties with staying smoke free. My emotions and physical state, creates a reassurance that I am just a smoker and should not try to change this fact. Just as an alcoholic is always an alcoholic, a smoker is always a smoker.  Learning to deal with the cravings is a natural part of life now.

I feel very alone in this personal battle.  In the past, writing in the pregnet blog use to help me feel encouraged to stay smoke free. But now, writing about smoking has become more difficult because it is confirming my reality ….. “I have not won the battle to quitting”. Continue reading

Loved Ones React!

Hey everyone Lucy here again. Today is going to be about reactions to my smoking, specifically my family’s reactions and including reactions from my parents, my sisters, my husband, my in-laws, and (the most important reactions to me) my daughters.

My parents found out that I started smoking when I was ten years old. They were so disappointed in me and if I am being honest, I was disappointed in myself and ashamed. I tried to stop right then and there, but I had no self-confidence and I wanted to be liked by my peers. My peers were the whole reason I started smoking in the first place. Now, I see this as the worst mistake I have ever made. Continue reading

Expanding Sacred Space

This week I decided to make a vision collage of my journey to stay quit.

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The egg represents my womb, which I have managed to create as a smoke free environment in the best interest of my baby and which I hope to expand to include the rest of my family and myself. Along the outside bordering the smoke filled space and the egg, reads:

sacred space no smoking beyond this point sacred space… Continue reading

Having a positive support system

Well today I was having a very rough day. Things were just not going the way that I planned them. Everything I wanted to get done, did not, and things I didn’t think I had to deal with, came up. When I got home from class today, I walked over to the mailbox before walking to get my son from the babysitters. I expected the usual, bills, flyers, junk. But as I skimmed through I noticed a small envelope addressed to me. I didn’t even think to look at the address on the back as I opened it because I was just too curious. It was a beautiful very spring-like card; bright yellow flower, with a beautiful blue in the background as the sky. Continue reading

The Contemplation

“To have or not to have”…that is the contemplation.

As time goes on, I thought the urge of wanting to smoke would disappear. However, I still contemplate smoking on a daily basis. Society always explores the benefits of not smoking. The benefits are always important, but to me, I feel that there are some benefits of smoking. I have created the below chart to examine what the benefits of smoking are to me and what are the benefits of staying smoke free. I used the acronym SMOKE to explain my contemplation. Continue reading

My Trials Of Stop Smoking Aids

Hi everyone it’s Lucy again. Today I want to talk to you about my journey with stop smoking aids which is also known as nicotine replacement therapy (NRT). I have tried a few different kinds and not all of them have worked for me.

Since I have TMJ (Temporomandibular Joint) I can’t use the gum. I have also tried lozenges, but my body and mind thought the lozenge was food and since eating is one of my triggers I would actually want a smoke after using it. And to be honest (to you reading, as well as to myself) to me the lozenge tasted horrible. It didn’t have that fruity taste I expected. Continue reading