Ten ways in which I feel I am failing my quitting smoking battle:
- I feel like I am running out of time to do the work of convincing myself to stay quit after the baby comes.
- I have been putting off setting up supports and a plan for dealing with triggers post birth (not so much on purpose but there are just so many other things to prepare and complete before the big day that I haven’t given much time to this one).
- I still see myself as a smoker in many ways.
- I fear that once I am not sharing my body with my baby all of my reasons and reasoning will go out the window.
- I attribute all my will power to being pregnant and don’t allow myself to own/be proud of what I’ve managed to accomplish so far because I am filled with self-doubt about my ability to stay quit.
- I don’t know how or what I should be doing to prepare myself for staying quit on my own after the baby comes, i.e. I feel lost still.
- People keep warning me about the sleep deprivation to come and that terrifies me because I crave cigarettes the most when I am tired and my resilience is low.
- I still want to smoke and feel like if I knew when that would just go away forever that I could at least count that down but the fact that it feels like I will struggle with it forever is debilitating and frustrating to say the least.
- I’m still dreaming about smoking.
- I’m still thinking about smoking in my waking hours as well.
10 ways I am succeeding in my quitting smoking battle: