Thank you from Pregnets!

Dear readers,

We are so proud of the incredible year we’ve had with the Pregnets blog! As the first phase of the blog wraps up, we wanted to express our gratitude for the incredible support we’ve received over the past year.

Thank you bloggers!
We want to thank our bloggers, Deborah, Llew, Lucy, Melissa, Nathalie, Ruma, and Tracie, for sharing their heartfelt reflections with the Pregnets community. The Pregnets Team was thrilled to learn that the writing process helped our bloggers in their quit journeys and that they may continue to share their stories with Pregnets from time to time to update us on the new successes and challenges they face along the way.

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My next steps…

Wow…time has gone by so fast. I still remember writing my first blog on Pregnets. Over the year, my life has changed drastically. I have given birth to a wonderful baby boy. Throughout my blogs my smoking challenges have been illustrated. When I was pregnant, cigarette smoke made me sick and was not easy to remove totally from my life, however after giving birth smoking is something I crave and I am struggling with limiting smoking on a daily basis. My priorities changed from the moment I got pregnant, because I want to protect my son but it was and is still hard. Continue reading

Effects of smoking on my relationships

Smoking has been a part of my life for many years. I cannot remember a time in my life when I was not smoking. I can’t even remember a time in my life when I was not exposed to 2nd hand smoke. Therefore, I can truly say that whether I was smoking or not smoking, smoking was and is part of my life.

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My Battle of Quitting Smoking

In my last couple of posts, I have discussed my difficulties with staying smoke free. My emotions and physical state, creates a reassurance that I am just a smoker and should not try to change this fact. Just as an alcoholic is always an alcoholic, a smoker is always a smoker.  Learning to deal with the cravings is a natural part of life now.

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A letter to my first cigarette

Dear my first cigarette,

Although it has been many years now since I had you, you have been on my mind a lot lately.  I am coming up to a year smoke free, And I think about you almost every day. I think about hiding behind some trees at a nearby park and lighting you with a Bic lighter that I had stolen from my mom, along with you. Had I only had the courage to tell my ‘friends’ that it probably was not a good idea if I did it. If only I knew what lighting you would do to me for over a decade. I wish I would have dropped you on the ground, and shredded you to pieces. Better yet, I almost wish I had smoked you, or tried to anyway but I wish that instead of laughing when I coughed (choking), that I would have been honest, and admitted how disgusting you were. How horrible you tasted, how the taste dried out my mouth, and made me feel like puking. That the scent you left on my fingers, was terrible. I wish I would have used that as a lesson learned, and never to smoke again. But, that is not how our story panned out, now it is? Continue reading

Smoking After Giving Birth

I wanted to think I would have a seamless transition of staying an ex-smoker after childbirth. Sadly no, that was not the case. Here are some reasons why:

Even though this birthing experience was slightly shorter than my first and second, bringing another person into this world is hard work! After the stress and worry was finally over (for that phase of parenthood) I really, really had the urge to “calm down”, “take the edge off” or “reward myself” with a cigarette.

  • I’m not exactly one that loves staying hospitals and a couple quick “mommy-breaks” were needed.
  • Once we got home, there was still a need for that mommy-break.

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