A Letter To My future Self

Hello all its Lucy again, this is my last blog for you so I better make it a good one eh? So I think in this one I will be writing a letter to my future self.

Dear Lucy,

I am so proud of us! We did it! We quit smoking and our family is back together. I know we’ve tried so many times to quit smoking and most of them was to no avail. But the last one was the right one, with the will power of us, the help of our husband and our three beautiful girls I knew we could do it. Continue reading

Quitting & Weight Gain

As of right now, I am just under 14 months smoke free. Let me tell you, I feel amazing! Well, other than the weight I gained. I have gained a total of 35 pounds since I smoked my last cigarette. Please, do not let this discourage you if you are currently reading this and thinking about quitting smoking.

I did not think that I would gain the weight, I was busy. I didn’t even realize the increase in the junk that I was eating, until recently when I looked back at the things that I craved instead of a smoke. Continue reading

Once Upon a Time Ruma Quit Smoking… is it THE END?

Once upon a time, there was a girl named Ruma. She was a smoker and knew smoking was bad for her health and the health of her future pregnancies and children. In 2014 Ruma found out she was pregnant and quit smoking cold turkey. As the nicotine detoxified from her body, she gained many health benefits. Her senses returned, and she was feeling an increase in energy and motivation. She felt secure that she was giving her baby a healthy environment to grow. Ruma had a healthy baby boy and they lived smoke free happily ever after….THE END.

WAIT…the above story is fictional. Continue reading

My Battle of Quitting Smoking

In my last couple of posts, I have discussed my difficulties with staying smoke free. My emotions and physical state, creates a reassurance that I am just a smoker and should not try to change this fact. Just as an alcoholic is always an alcoholic, a smoker is always a smoker.  Learning to deal with the cravings is a natural part of life now.

I feel very alone in this personal battle.  In the past, writing in the pregnet blog use to help me feel encouraged to stay smoke free. But now, writing about smoking has become more difficult because it is confirming my reality ….. “I have not won the battle to quitting”. Continue reading

Expanding Sacred Space

This week I decided to make a vision collage of my journey to stay quit.

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The egg represents my womb, which I have managed to create as a smoke free environment in the best interest of my baby and which I hope to expand to include the rest of my family and myself. Along the outside bordering the smoke filled space and the egg, reads:

sacred space no smoking beyond this point sacred space… Continue reading

Stress & Staying Smoke Free

Near the end of November, my husband and I were out for dinner one night when we got the one of the worst phone calls we could possibly get. My husbands very BEST friend (brother is more like it) and my children’s Godfather had been in an accident and was in the hospital.  Naturally we packed up and drove to see him. We had no idea what we were about to walk into when we got to the hospital. When we arrived, we were informed that he was not going to make it.  Continue reading