E-Cigarettes

Through my last blog, I discussed someone who quit smoking by setting a quit date.  As I mentioned, this blog I am going to be discussing my closest friends experience with e-cigarettes.  But before I get to our mini interview, I would just like to discuss my personal opinions on e-cigarettes.

Personally, I do not believe in using e-cigarettes. Continue reading

Expanding Sacred Space

This week I decided to make a vision collage of my journey to stay quit.

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The egg represents my womb, which I have managed to create as a smoke free environment in the best interest of my baby and which I hope to expand to include the rest of my family and myself. Along the outside bordering the smoke filled space and the egg, reads:

sacred space no smoking beyond this point sacred space… Continue reading

Introduction to me and my story

Over the next few months, in this blog I will be describing my experiences of quitting smoking before, during and after pregnancy.

First things first: I am a twenty-eight year old mother of three beautiful little girls, ages three (almost four), one and a half (almost two), and just six months. I married my best friend who, I’ve known for the past five years. I started smoking at the age of ten, something I don’t recommend. I plan to explain this to my girls when they are older. I have tried to quit many times and could never really get up the self-esteem to go longer than a month.

I am currently enrolled in a stop smoking clinic in Hamilton ON. When I started at the clinic I was smoking upwards of fifteen to twenty cigarettes a day. Now, three weeks in and I am down to around five to ten a day. When I started I was not very confident that I could quit smoking, but in that short amount of time I have cut my smoking in half and my confidence had gone up from a five to a six. I feel like I can really do it this time.

There are many things that have affected me. The big one is stress: there is money, work, kids and things that are out of my control. I know it’s harder when people say things to you like “just quit”, or “just put them down”. But it is hard to quit and don’t let anyone tell you it’s not. My first stress factor is my girls. Don’t get me wrong I love them all with every fiber of my being, but three under the age of four can be a lot. But even more stressful is that my children are currently in the care of Children’s Aid Society because someone (we don’t know who for sure) has abused them. Another big stress factor for me is not having my own income. Since my oldest daughter was born I have been a stay at home mom. My husband is the sole income earner in our house. It is pretty embarrassing to ask for money to buy tampons and food.

I am going to end this on a lighter note by saying: it is a hard road and a long one, but I know I can do it with help from friends, family and complete strangers who blog about quitting smoking. If you need someone to talk to, please feel to talk to me. Not only can I help you by listening to you, but you can help me by talking with me. We all need help sometimes, there is no harm in seeking it out.

Good Luck.

Lucy H.

Smoking After Giving Birth

I wanted to think I would have a seamless transition of staying an ex-smoker after childbirth. Sadly no, that was not the case. Here are some reasons why:

Even though this birthing experience was slightly shorter than my first and second, bringing another person into this world is hard work! After the stress and worry was finally over (for that phase of parenthood) I really, really had the urge to “calm down”, “take the edge off” or “reward myself” with a cigarette.

  • I’m not exactly one that loves staying hospitals and a couple quick “mommy-breaks” were needed.
  • Once we got home, there was still a need for that mommy-break.

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Interviewing my family!

In my last post I mentioned that I would be interviewing my husband and our daughter about their feelings towards my quitting smoking. Below are the questions I asked them along with their responses.

My interview with Our daughter:

Do you remember when mommy used to smoke?
“Yes, before Carter was out of your tummy.” Continue reading

Counting Smokes and Being Accountable

I have been doing a lot of counting lately.

I am 35 years old and have been smoking since I was 12 years old (that’s 12-15 cigarettes a day for 23 years, less than that for the first 5 years I smoked). I come from a French family of mostly women, most of whom smoke. I have been smoking my entire existence really, and though my own mother never smoked a cigarette a day in her life, my father smokes 1-2 packs a day in the home I grew up in before I ever left my mother’s womb.

I have never quit before. I have never tried to quit before. Until now. Continue reading