Top 10 Fails and Top 10 Wins in My Battle to Stay Quit

Ten ways in which I feel I am failing my quitting smoking battle:

  1. I feel like I am running out of time to do the work of convincing myself to stay quit after the baby comes.
  2. I have been putting off setting up supports and a plan for dealing with triggers post birth (not so much on purpose but there are just so many other things to prepare and complete before the big day that I haven’t given much time to this one).
  3. I still see myself as a smoker in many ways.
  4. I fear that once I am not sharing my body with my baby all of my reasons and reasoning will go out the window.
  5. I attribute all my will power to being pregnant and don’t allow myself to own/be proud of what I’ve managed to accomplish so far because I am filled with self-doubt about my ability to stay quit.
  6. I don’t know how or what I should be doing to prepare myself for staying quit on my own after the baby comes, i.e. I feel lost still.
  7. People keep warning me about the sleep deprivation to come and that terrifies me because I crave cigarettes the most when I am tired and my resilience is low.
  8. I still want to smoke and feel like if I knew when that would just go away forever that I could at least count that down but the fact that it feels like I will struggle with it forever is debilitating and frustrating to say the least.
  9. I’m still dreaming about smoking.
  10. I’m still thinking about smoking in my waking hours as well.

10 ways I am succeeding in my quitting smoking battle:
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