Walking without a crutch

I was doing so well with my tobacco intake. Even though I had not completely quit I had myself down to less than half a pack of cigarettes a day, which is personally very good for me. Now, here come my excuses: currently I have been going through a lot. I have recently had to file for custody of my daughter, which means past memories of an abusive relationship have been replayed over and over again in my mind. I have also had some health issues arise, which on its own seems like enough to give somebody that extra push to quit, but unfortunately for me it has added stress and increased my tobacco intake. I feel that smoking gives me a slight relief from the stress but many people would say that it is all in my head. Instead of focusing on the slight relief I feel after having a cigarette, I need to remember the harm that it is doing to my body. Continue reading

Allow Me to Introduce Myself

My name is Deborah and I am a 32-year-old smoker. I started smoking when I was 15. Both my parents smoke and when I started, I did so because many of my friends also smoked. As well, seeing my friends and my father doing it made me wonder why it was so “popular”. Despite warnings from family, I continued to smoke. I would later come to realize that it isn’t a popularity thing but an addiction and a nasty, life-controlling one. I wish I had never started and I am sure many people currently trying to quit as well as ex-smokers can relate to this feeling.

Flash forward to the present…I am currently 35 weeks + 5 days into my third pregnancy and it has been a process for me to quit smoking. Continue reading